Well this is my first blog.
I just bought a business (a print shop) January 1st, my son Benjamin was born a week ago yesterday, my wife is at home recovering from the c-section...
I'm tired.
I find myself torn between the need to come to work (not a nagging inner need, but a "mortgage is due" kind of need), and the need to stay home and take care of my wife and child. It's difficult, and I'm not getting much help from my business partners either. I realize that if I don't come to work and make things happen, we will go broke, simple math...I have to take in the same amount that goes out. On the other hand, I have a wife at home recovering from surgery, who needs my help to do simple things.
....oh, balance....
Of course my business partners (my dad and my brother) think I'm being silly for trying to stay home and take care of my wife...but I feel silly sitting here in my office, while my wife is at home, alone. (with our son, but he's a week old...not much help) haha
It's times like these that I really start to wonder if I am doing the right things. Is my business really God's will for me, or am I forcing it? Am I being silly about needing to be home with wife? How many shirts can one infant poop through? Geez... :)
My initial reaction to all of this is that I need to get out of the business...which then puts me in the position of having no income...which is fine with me except that things..cost money. So then I would have to go get a job...which has never been easy with my record and GED. So I'm staying where I am...it's just panic anyway. But what to do about the immediate issue??
I guess I can't blog my way out of this one...
The Bible tells us that the Holy Spirit will convict us when we are off the path...I'm feeling convicted, I just can't figure out what for....
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