Defeat!!!!

I just watched the Rangers get the snot kicked out of them by the Tigers...19 to 6. OUCH! And I must say, I'm feeling a little bit like they must feel right now...defeated. My list of things that need to get done just keeps getting bigger and bigger...and I don't really have the resources right now to do all of them. Work's going well...busy busy, though it really needs to do a lot better than it is if we're all going to survive. We have a new machine coming (hopefully) that will streamline a lot of the digital work we do. That I am excited about.
I haven't been spending as much time in the Word as I would like. I hate how that is always the first to go when I get busy...
Wishlist:
0.5) I wish I knew the Lord better, and knew how to pursue Him better. I wish I didn't get SO LOST SO FAST SO OFTEN!
1) I wish I could be around my family more....I just don't understand why the world has to work the way it does...why do we have to have money for things?....why do you have to work to get that money?....why can't I just be with my family all day?.... I know the answers to all those questions but I don't really agree with them.
1.5) I wish I played a bigger part in Benjamin's life. Everything seems to circle back to Mommy, which is a direct result of me not being around much! I'm fortunate and BLESSED to have Amanda, who knows exactly what she's doing raising Benjamin and I. :) I just wish I knew I was helping more...
2) I wish I had the time, and resources to pursue ministry fulltime,......going to school and getting a degree and becoming a pastor... But the resources just aren't there so far. I had hoped to be in school already...maybe next semester....
3) I wish I could start a band again. I used to love playing music (and still do when I get the chance). How cool would that be to be able to reach people with the message of Christ through music....kind of like these guys do----> www.underoath777.com
4) I wish I could go get a new tattoo right now...I have so many ideas for a tat and I REALLY want to get a new one...REALLY bad! It's been like....2 years(?) since I got my last one!!!
5) I wish I had the money to go on a vacation out of the country somewhere, I just got off probation in February (I've been on probation for almost 6 years), and now I am allowed to leave the country, but I can't. :o haha Oh well, someday.
6) I wish my brother would wake up and stop trying to "buy happiness" and start looking to the Word.
7) I wish they would have let Sammy out in November. (My best friend, aside from my wife of course, is in prison right now and was denied parole last November. He's up for parole again this coming November.)
8) I wish I felt like I was accomplishing something.

"Laughter and tears are both responses to frustration and exhaustion. . . . I myself prefer to laugh, since there is less cleaning up to do afterward."
-Kurt Vonnegut, Jr.